cmarie99

hello there everyone :) i am happy to say that i am starting over. i have been my worst enemy for my whole life, and i realize, its not going to get better. so, i need to accept it. otherwise, it will only get worse. yes i am an awful human being, but i am learning to accept that. i am trying to learn to accept things about myself. i am trying to accept the way i look. i may never feel beautiful. i may never feel okay with myself. but om trying to accept it. its okay to be imperfect. ill never be perfect. ill never be skinny. ill never be beautiful. ill never be smart. ill never be good enough. and i need to accept that. i am fat, i am ugly,

so a while back i was telling you guys about how things were getting better. i have less symptoms of an eating disorder, if that makes sense. im up to about 1,000 calories a day at least i think. its hard bc i really feel guilt for eating, i feel gross and disgusting for eating again. i mean also i never liked the way i look i really dont. theres a difference between looking beautiful and feeling beautiful. i really dont like the way i am. im trying to fix it, but whenever i try someone gets mad at me. whether its myself or someone else. i remember not too long ago i was eating more than my recent 900 calorie amount, and someone said "geez th

hello there! so i know my last journal entry was a really long time ago and i was really depressed. although i am still struggling with depression, things have been getting better. im almost done with my 8th grade school year, and ill be moving on to high school pretty soon. if any of you guys happen to have any advice for me on high school, please let me know! i am nervous, but excited for high school, i mean im not the best student academically, so i dont know how ill do in high school. well the only class im really struggling with is algebra, and good lord its difficult. but anyway, i got braces last friday, so thts fun. but its been ra